I am TIRED!

This is an explanation on my SECOND postponement of Drop #003.

I have so much art that could be displayed.

I have people that want to display my art.
I have people that want to see my art.
I’m not ready to show it.
I mean…. I am but I want people to REALLY SEE it. I’m going to tell you why I’m not ready to show anything yet.

I CARE ABOUT MY ART! Like… A LOT! So much so that I don’t want anyone to ask me if they can have it. The reason I care about my art as much as I do is because of where the inspiration came from. Oddly, I want people to look at my art, appreciate it, and be moved by it, but I don't want people to own it. I believe this stems from the fact that I am an artist first and foremost, not a salesperson. For me, creating art is a deeply personal and expressive journey. It's a way for me to pour my emotions, inspirations, and messages into tangible form. Each piece is a reflection of my innermost thoughts and feelings, a glimpse into my soul. When others view my art, I hope they can feel the same sense of connection and emotion that I did when creating it. It’s not about exclusivity or ownership, but rather about fostering a shared experience and making a meaningful impact. I want my art to serve as a catalyst for introspection, dialogue, and perhaps even change. So, while I appreciate the admiration and interest in my creations, I prefer to keep them as a collective experience rather than individual possessions.

I AM an artist.

I find it difficult to believe, even though I know I am. It's hard for me to believe, even though I've known I was an artist since I was 13 years old.

Self- esteem and Confidence

The concept of "the same but different" lies at the heart of understanding the distinction between self-esteem and confidence. In fact, self-esteem can be viewed as a deep-rooted appreciation for oneself, encompassing an individual's sense of worth and value. It is a reflection of how we perceive our own abilities, qualities, and overall sense of self. On the other hand, confidence is more closely associated with one's belief in their ability to accomplish specific goals or tasks, demonstrating a level of trust in their own capabilities. While these two concepts are interconnected, they manifest in different ways and play distinct roles in our lives. Both self-esteem and confidence are vital for personal growth and success, empowering individuals to navigate life's challenges with resilience and a positive mindset.

Why I am not releasing art for sale

Because I am not confident that people will buy it and there is a possibility that if people do not buy my art, it could affect my self-esteem, I often find myself questioning whether to share my work with others. The fear of rejection looms overhead, casting shadows of doubt and uncertainty. Will my creations be met with indifference or disdain? It is a constant struggle, this battle between my passion for art and my fear of disappointment. Yet, deep down, I know that art is subjective and that not everyone will appreciate or understand my vision. But still, the hesitancy remains, rooted in the fear of my self-esteem being shattered by the harsh realities of a market that may not embrace my unique style. It is a delicate balance to maintain, one that requires resilience and a steadfast belief in the value of my art, regardless of its commercial success. So, I continue to create, pouring my heart and soul into each brushstroke or line, hoping that somewhere out there, someone will not only appreciate but also resonate with what I have to offer.

I want people to know what to expect when they look at my art

I take immense pride in showcasing my art's unparalleled uniqueness and intellectual depth. Every stroke of the brush, every intricate detail is a reflection of my authentic self. It is a true manifestation of who I am as an artist, entirely distinct from anyone else's expression. The unwavering confidence I possess in this fact is unshakable. However, I understand that in order for my audience to fully appreciate and comprehend my art, they require a deeper understanding. Providing the necessary context and explanation allows them to approach my artwork with open eyes, enabling them to truly engage with its profound meaning and fully embrace the experience it offers.

I have decided to delay the release of #003 on 12/12 for a few important reasons.

To keep it simple…. I want to be better.